One thing I’ve been a bit slow to do since my realization of self, is to tell my parents. To this point, I’ve only told my Mom – and just finished writing the letter to Dad. Teresa is just reading it before I send it.
My Mom took the news extremely well. Her response was short, but kind: “I am glad that you have worked things out for yourself. You do seem so much happier and that is nice to see.”
Everyone I’ve talked to mentions how much happier Jessica is than James was. I realize this will fade in time. I am not doing this to experience happiness 100% of the time, but it is nice to be happy being yourself, for a change.
I’m worried about my Dad’s reaction. I just sent the letter. So, I should know tomorrow. In my heart I know everything will work out – I can feel it. It doesn’t make any less scary to tell him his son was secretly his daughter all along. He will view it as a loss. I’m sure of this. I just hope he can view it as a gain as well.
All these conflicting emotions. Jumbled on top of each other. At least I’m not burying them like I’ve done in the past.
– Jessica