I have finally allowed myself to believe a fairly old friendship is ended. And I have to be the one to actually end it, because I have had no replies from this person for 2 months. So, I will close this door, but not lock it, and move on. I’ve lost friends in other ways, but I think this is the first one I’ve lost because of me. I will take some of the responsibility for this loss. I chose to finally accept myself. Chose to finally stop living in denial. And so, I changed. This person needs to take responsibility for his part of not being able to accept that change.
When one door closes, another opens though. I finally got to meet a new friend in person on Saturday. Rain and I had talked pretty much every night since our original correspondence on a web forum. Quickly moving to Facebook where it was easier to chat. We have a ton of things in common, and lots of things that aren’t, to keep things interesting. We seem to be able to relate to each other really well. In fact, Rain is the most relatable person I’ve ever met.
After freaking Teresa out by leaving the meeting up plans to the last minute, we finally decided to pick Rain up on our way into down town. Finding her place was relatively easy considering I don’t drive in the city that often, and even less so in the residential areas. After a wave, and greeting, and nearly awkward hug, we were on our way.
The plan was, basically, to do a bit of shopping, have some coffee, and chat a lot. We pretty much accomplished that. Rain started out a bit quiet, and self admittedly was much shyer in person than online. So, I got to use my voice quite a bit that day. More than I have to date. And it was very tired by the end of the day.
I must say that the meeting and the day went very, very well. We laughed. I got glared at (by Rain). The weather was pleasant. We got coffees. We shopped for clothing and shoes. I got 2 camis.
So – lost one close friend, but seem to be gaining a new better one. I’ll take that every time.